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Saturday 31 January 2009

.: Nothing :.

have you ever felt nothing? the earth is still spinning,things happen around you each femto second but you feel nothing. that is me today. from the moment i woke up this morning, i just stared at the window but i felt nil. i smashed shuttlecock into syukri's head when playing badminton, i apologized but i felt nil. i watched movie, i talked to others, i laughed but i felt nil. i blocked my auditory canal with earphones and adjust to the maximum volume like i always did. i saw their lips mumbling about things, but i was worried if i'll show the wrong expression when they talk to me because at that time i was emotionless. so ended up not to make any eyes contact to people. try to stay in my own world. floating in my own world is no fun at all. but that is the best way to avoid from hurting people because "she" said that i am insensitive to others and i am cold as ice. give me time and i gain my emotions back. i promise.

.: Mirror :.



the reflection of mine
is the total opposite of me.
but it is still a part of me.
i am unable to worry about and calm my reflection





Thursday 29 January 2009

.: Dream :.

i could barely open my eyes since yesterday because still exhausted from ice-skating after the ice-hockey match. and why on earth Pak Lah appearred in my dream when i was sleeping this evening and he was checking on my drawers! the devils are so cool, they can copy Pak Lah's face perfectly and i was saying, "wow, cool..". and he smiled broadly; continuosly and i said "wow, scary..". avoid from sleeping during maghrib people, devils invade!

-better start checking on my drawers, who knows maybe there is something =)
and what i found? notes! continue with the revision la weh!-

.: Wall.E :.


meet my new friend, Wall.E Ziegler. he can say only 2 words, Wall.E and Eve. the rest of his time, he just giggling, making sounds like a broken machine. a little cute.broken.machine =) and he's all mine, hehe

Wednesday 28 January 2009

.: Workaholic on Wednesday :.

hey there mates! there were so many things happened to me in these past few days. i wouldnt talk each and every event in details. so just gonna touch and go about what i think worth to note about. still this blog is for me to reread my experiences and events happen in my life for my own reflection.

the obvious thing about me lately is being a workaholic. i cant stop thinking about work, work, work. hazim and syuk once said to me "get a life!". despite of lab reports, essays, tutorials and tests (those who read this blog should remember these four things already), seriously i dont know what to do. at first kinda hate it, very much, but as time passes by, these are my routines and i cant keep blabbering about it for each second, right? every morning i wake up, the first thing i'll think about is which work i havent done yet. i know it sounds kinda scary. but, it keeps me happy all the time (unconciously) as now i know what to do when i wake up in the morning, got missions to accomplish. and when i finish it, ah, that would be like in heaven. keeping myself busy is one way for me to get rid of unnecessary stuff e.g. emo because of missing malaysia very much, how lonely i feel and bla3..


i just handed in my essay about FAME (fatty acid methyl ester) analysis last monday and then my tutor gave me another question about bacteriophage lambda and prepare an essay about 1000 words for next week tutorial on monday. i was cool with it. but when i saw my friends from other courses goyang kaki, i started to story them about our works. how busy we are. then, i stopped myself and think. what the hell i was doing? i looked pathetic! i said to myself if i dont want to do it, just leave it and go back malaysia la. this is the objective i am here far far away from home so do it and keep my mouth shut. but i know this wouldnt be long cuz i'll never be able to stay cool all the time because i am a human and sustaining myself working at maximum rate gradually make me tired for sure.

enough with that. i can say this is my busiest 2 days (i myself dont know how many "busiest" day/week i have already). i did list it in my previous post but just to update those who singgah2 here:

*monday = lab report, essay, presentation slides (k.i.v), eddy's visit
*tuesday = test AID (3 lectures one go)

that would not sound so much trouble but if you feel it yourself, you cant even talk to your own guest who sit next to you because there are still many lecture slides you have to read. i feel guilty because i cant accompany my guest to see places in warwick uni as i have lectures and tons of works to do. (i do blame him to come visit at wrong timing, haha). want to know what i did last night? i read my slides and after finished with one topic, i made him drinks. then i continued with my revision. after finished another topic, i served him burgers. then this thing went on until i finished it all. poor eddy, haha. i didnt even chit chat with him during the revision but kept stuffing him with foods to keep his mouth shut, haha. im an evil after all.

i did the test in the evening today. kinda hard for me as im not really into statistics about mortality and morbidity and honestly i have no interest in it at all. but i keep up with it for my test. my mission, to maintain at the average marks, 65% and above. dont ask furthermore, i will come out with my common answer, just wait and see. after test, i spent my time with eddy, syuk, fadil, hamzah and akmal in the student union. and another history for me today. for the first time i play pool and i knocked the ball into the hole during my second try. believe it or not, i leave it to you. i always accompany my friends back in my hometown to play pool but i have no intention to try it. what into me today then?

this one i hope you would be jealous when you read about it. i watched ICE HOCKEY live baby! and it was so much fun! the excitement when you see players try to crash onto other player with intention. players suddenly fell without any reason when skating on ice. the so cool goalies costume. the beautiful game on ice rink. ah, thanks to akmal who let me fitting into his car to watch the game. i was having so much fun!


national anthem

birmingham university


warwick uni feat. coventry uni


live, baby!

sorry cuz i forgot to write the result. of course warwick/coventry university won the match. 7-3, =)
-penat sudah, off to bed-

Sunday 25 January 2009

.: Another one :.

this is the third post for today. im keeping myself balance as i sat in front of my laptop from morning until now doing my writting assignment, tutorial presentation slides and revision. pretty tense right now.

just had nasi lemak with dzull for dinner and it was almost a failure as i forgot that i was using salted anchovies and added some more salt. thank God it still adjustable and dzull like it *phew. in the future, i'll be more careful.

right now, i'm having a painful recurring headache and i saw Hypo's status on ym stated-migrain-. ah, this biology course in warwick is a headache after all, haha. due to my commitment for dikir barat practices, i need to double up my commitment to do my works earlier so that i can assure i finish it on time. plus, next week would be a energy-draining week.

i emailed my tutor telling him that i cant attend the tutorial tomorrow. first reason, im not feeling well. second reason, i hate next door tutorial. they will join us for tutorial tomorrow morning. two of the girls are so annoying as they like chit chatting unnecessary thing. there was one time when i participated in theirs, their tutor asked the whole class if my answer was a crap, when he was the one who got no idea what we were discussing about. i used the points directly from the lecture slides and that really make me piss off until now.

here i am typing this post, half way done with my presentation slides and give up as i cant stand the pain from this headache anymore. checklist:

*essay: done
*lab report: done
*revision: laura green, mark wall, M2 & M3
*presentation slides: half way, K.I.V

-off to bed-

.: Companion :.

1. Life is lonesome

(forgive me for taking my own picture, haha)
Maybe what we really need is company after all… (quoted from Khairul)


and he's right =)



2. Life is boring


make it a little bit interesting...


(this handwriting once been "detention"ed by my math teacher, Dr. Bano, lol)


selamat study =)

.: Happy :.


no matter what you do, just (try to) be happy. take a break sometimes and do your thing with all your heart.

my break time is over. i'm out of here, hehe

Saturday 24 January 2009

.: Pleasure :.





i would say that having rojak buah and listening to KAMI The Movie OST when doing my homework at 3 am is a pleasure after all... =)

Friday 23 January 2009

.: Evolusi :.

aku terfikir adakah proses evolusi manusia ke arah daya tahan yang lebih tinggi atau ke arah yang lebih rendah? dengan penciptaan teknologi-teknologi baru yang sangat mudah e.g telefon, internet, teknologi nano, human project genome etc.; semuanya memberi kemudahan kepada manusia, tapi menyebabkan manusia semakin malas. malas untuk mempelopori dan mempelajari skills for survival. adakah dunia seperti dalam cerita Wall-E di mana bumi penuh dengan sampah, semua rutin harian robot-robot yang menguruskannya dan manusia hanya duduk atas kerusi terbang?
aku sangat kagum dengan orang zaman dahulu yang mempunyai daya ketahanan yang sangat tinggi, kekuatan mental dan fizikal yang lasak dan tidak bersifat terlalu bergantung kepada sesuatu. tetapi dengan penemuan dan terciptanya teknologi-teknologi terkini, secara tidak langsung tanpa disedari manusia beralih atau evolve ke arah yang lebih mundur dan bersikap terlalu bergantung kepada sesuatu tanpa ada rasa untuk berusaha dahulu. ramai yang mengatakan bahawa sangat susah kalau tiada kemudahan internet dalam urusan harian. bukan untuk memberi pandangan bahawa teknologi itu suatu ancaman, tetapi manusia harus sedar bahawa skill of survival itu kena ada dalam diri masing-masing.

-merepek di malam hari-

sambung lab report balik

Thursday 22 January 2009

.: Taggu' :.

this thing starts to go around again and now its my third time been tagged. this time by FHO a.k.a THE senior.. ;)

rules:

1.Link to the person that tagged you.
2.Post the rules in your blog.
3.Share 6 important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4.Tag 6 random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.
5.Let each person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.
6.Reply to me when you’re finish.


These are the 6 maybe-weird things about me:

* before i sleep, i'll switch off all lights and cover all light sources as tiny as power plug diode until it's really dark. then i open the curtain, let the moonlight in and have my peaceful sleep with piano slow songs from my "hibernate but on" [if you get what i mean] laptop. hee

* when i wake up from sleep, i'll switch on the two table lamps first, go to the toilet to wash my face, back to my room, then i switch on the main light. maybe it does not seem as a point for you, but i think it's a "thing" for me 'cuz usually i'll switch on the main light right after i woke up.

* after 4 months in U.K, i have 6 pairs of shoes. and it takes about 5-7 minutes for me to choose which one to wear before i go out. and, i know the next pairs keep coming 'cuz i lurve shoes =)

* i like to "discriminate" other colours from my favourite colour which is black. in my wardrobe, all the black sweaters, black coats, black jumpers etc.; i arrange it in the main part of the wardrobe as in there are for display, and the other colours in the hidden part. for shoes, i arrange the black one first, then i take care of the others. hitam itu sensasi! i got 5 pairs of jeans and only one of them is black, originally from Malaysia and i keep wearing and washing it every week. the others still in my luggage =P

* i like to imitate people. whatever it is. voices, gestures, the way people walks, smiles, eyes opening, body language etc.; anything, although it is not perfect. and it occurs spontaneously, automatically and unavoidable. ah, now i know why i can not find the "real" me. 'cuz i was born as a copy machine. yes i am and i am proud of it.

* i love arts and arts is one BIG word. not going to define it here, 'cuz i really don't know how to answer when people ask me "what kind of arts do you like?" okay, let me give some shots. photography, music, martial arts, drawings, grafitti and the list continue forever. see, i told ya i don't know how to express it in words. only the arts people understand how poor of words we are but how rich the hard-to-define skill we have. hee

now, this is the part i hate to do. i wish i can tag Angelina Jolie, Brad Pitt, Christiano Ronaldo and Barrack Obama but i dont have their blogs. so, nasib lah kamu labi...:

-meor
-nazri
-mas
-nizam
-fiyyah
-wafi

Please, in any chances, do cut me off from the tag list ya =)

.: Week 14 :.

here's the update for week 14:

-essay and presentation [tutorial]
-lab report [pyruvate kinase]
-test 3 [agents of infectious disease]
-test 2 [physiology & metabolism]
-Mnight
-visit from eddy

i dont know how to handle this one 'cuz we have practice for Mnight everyday and i haven't perfect the gaya. i need to prepare slides for presentation which will be observed by 10+1 people. i need to finish revising all handouts from Mark Wall, Dan Mitchell and Laura Green. and accept a guest from St. Andrews who will spend his weekDAYS instead of weekEND that he told me last monday. thank God i do not have labs next week since its my free week from labs after 3 "long lasting" and tiring labs *breath

what can i say, this is a university student life. TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.

and i say...TAKE IT! =)

Wednesday 21 January 2009

.: Photos :.

dah lama tak letak photos. so, these are the photos yang aku snapped this morning.


nazurah and milo

hypo tuff

najib and hypo

milo and najib

milo and THE frozen lake

our pride, Gibbet Hill

need to slow down, ais kat atas jalan...skit lg nak jatuh pg tdi

OUR hutan/kebun (nazurah said it)

Gibbet Hill-central campus link[B&W version]

sun, best..

biological sciences students

graduation day (january intake kot)

and lastly..my room =)

.: Bulan :.

*breath. yeay, alhamdulillah dah siap lab report. actually i just finished it this morning sebab semalam tertidur awal, dalam pukul 10. nie mesti kifarah mengantuk lecture agents of infectious disease yang paling bosan bagiku minggu ini. nasib baik bangun kul 530 pagi, kalau tak, ponteng lecture la jawabnya. dengan printer Lexmark ku yang "hebat" ini, hanya boleh print one page one go, so kena bare with it dalam masa 10 minit. positif: printer nie nak check betul, mana la tau ada grammar mistakes [hampeh].

bangun awal memang satu nikmat bagiku. kalau malam, bising entah apa2 kat luar bilik. budak2 flatmates main golf kat hallway memang memanaskan bilik aku yang sudah panas dengan heater kesayangan ini. mahu saja ku lempang sorang2 dengan kayu golf tu. awal pagi, semua tidur melayari alam mimpi. so, aku bebas membuat aktiviti rutin; masak breakfast, kemas bilik, basuh pinggan mangkuk etc. aman..

masa bukak tingkap ternampak bulan sabit. dah lama aku tak nampak bulan. teringat kata2 po masa parti jejans dulu, walau di mana kita berada, kita memandang bulan yang sama. yea, i miss u guys. walau yang berada di Warwick skali pun, susah nak jumpa. apatah lagi yang berada di universiti lain. nak jumpa pun kena fikir bajet dulu. yang kat czech republic tu lagi la jauh. yang kat malaysia lain cerita pulak. di sini malam, di sana siang. tak boleh nak apply bulan nyer pepatah.

kepada sesiapa yang dah abis exam tu, take ur time enjoy sikit, not too much. kepada budak2 bio Warwick, we got no test this week *yeay, tapi ada 2 tests next week *adeh. have a great week people! =)

Monday 19 January 2009

Tag from Nazri and Mazzein x Chantek

1. Apakah benda yang paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
* jam

2. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan wang sendiri?
* lunch set kat prayer hall

3. Di manakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu?
* in my own house, not my parent's

4. Berapa lama anda rasa hubungan kamu berkekalan?
* till i die

5. Adakah anda dilamun cinta?
* nope

6. Di manakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?
* Chicken Cottage Coventry

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?
* the lost boy

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu?
* awang najib bin awang mohamad

9. Kamu lebih senang dengan mak atau ayah?
* my mom

10. Namakan seseorang yang kamu ingin jumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?
* afkhar

11.Sebutkan 8 nama sahabat yang paling rapat dengan kamu?
long list, cant give the top 8

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian anda sendiri?
* laundrette

13. Tempat yang paling seronok kamu mahu pegi?
* galapagos island

14. Pelukan atau ciuman?
* ciuman

15. Butirkan 5 perkara tentang orang yang tag kamu.
*2 of them : lelaki, islam, kurus, malaysian, gedik gels uols

16. 8 perkara yang amat saya gilai buat masa sekarang
* saya tak gila apa2

17. 8 perkataan yang sering di ucapkan.
* hello, tu je..

18. 8 buah buku yang paling terbaru dibaca.
*genetic prentice hall, stryer 5th edition, lodish 6th edition, lab manual, lecture handouts, random articles

19. 10 lagu yang saya boleh dengar berulang kali.
* kiss from a rose
* true love
* kirara
* wish
* 47967
* rocket
* deeper conversation
* such great heights
* big city dreams
* scumbody told me

20. 8 perkara yang saya pelajari tahun lalu.
*dun ask for anything, just eat and live on
*being forward-focus is fun
*people always leave
*treasure ur life
*play safe
*dun be such an arsehole
*dun overdo anything u do
*keep cool..

Saturday 17 January 2009

.: test dan lab report (lagi) :.

semalam antara hari-hari yang agak kritikal bagiku. test dan labs. metabolism test pasal enzymes dan Gibbs free energy. takde komen pasal test tu, since aku pun dh buat revision, just wait and see. if my marks x memuaskan, work harder la kan? =) yang tak tahan nya, lab yang setiap minggu menjadi punca aku penat di kala hujung minggu. dah 2 minggu nie dah aku blackout on weekend sebab penat sangat.
last week pasal succinate dehydrogenase assay yang mengambil masa 5 jam untuk aku dan lab partnerku, Diana from Bulgaria habiskan. at the end of the day, both of us as usual sighed sebab x dapat tengok sunlight. i gave her Walkers cheese and onions sebab aku bawak extra. at first dia tolak. then aku insisted nak bagi jugak. and what did she say? thanks for saving my life from hunger, haha. we both skipped our breakfast and for sure, our lunch.
and semalam, well-prepared before the labs is a good idea. i finished my labs pasal enzymes kinetics at 3.50. *smiling broadly =] and Diana kept apologizing sebab dia x baca manual before labs. ah, not a big deal sebab aku pun dh layout steps required. and gave a little push for both of us to do it faster than last week labs. aku masuk bilik, terus padam. and hey, this is the first time i slept with my shoes on.
sekarang nie, tengah rest or tidur pun boleh termimpi-mimpi lab report yang belum start buat. is that scary? for me, it is...sebab my lab reports marks belum lagi memuaskan. i'll give extra effort for it from now on. plus, kena struggle untuk tutorial work sheet yang akan dibincang setiap isnin. another extra piles of ATP needed here.*sigh (again)
mungkin ramai yang hairan or for warwick student, dah bosan dah nak dengar alasan budak-budak biological sciences yang x dapat nak attend practice dikir. lab report, test, essay, tutorial. haha, memang betul la..despite of my laziness la..=) aku plan nak bela ikan as my pet, if i can find a small aquarium and tiny cute fish yang murah and affordable. why? just want to avoid talking to my mug again...haha. have a great weekend people.

Thursday 15 January 2009

.: Internet :.

elok-elok tengah go through lectures slide dgn penuh kosentrasi, tiba-tiba masuk mesej ym yang mengarahkan utk pergi ke webpage berikut:

http://www.israel-vs-palestine.com/gz/?home

rupa-rupanya webpage utk vote sokongan kepada palestine atau israel. ya, aku sokong palestin, tiada undi rahsia dalam isu ini, tak seperti kotak undi di Malaysia yang menjadi rahsia. tapi aku tgk vote israel vs. palestin, 50.2% against 49.8%. kemudian aku terfikir, siapa lah yang set up kan webpage. entah-entah yahudi mana yang buat. then aku terus mengexplore. comment2 yg menyokong israel kebanyakan nya sama je. so, my hypotesis which is webpage nie milik individu yang pro-israel terbukti sedikit, tak lebih dari 1%. sebab pemilik webpage nie bebas utk alter the result ikut kemahuan sendiri. mungkin, tak cakap dgn kepastian.

vote seperti ini adalah tidak adil. bagaimana pulak dgn yg tiada access to internet? yang duduk kat dalam hutan? yang berada di tengah medan perang sebagai tentera atau "perisai manusia"[quote from israelis words against hamas] di palestin? secara tidak langsung, perkara seperti ini boleh menggugat keyakinan kita terhadap umat Islam sendiri kerana tidak menyokong saudara sendiri. jadi, jangan terpengaruh dgn web page seperti yang dinyatakan.

kembali ke alam realiti, masa sekarang semua org perlukan teknologi nie. takde internet takleh hidup.
contoh 1: academic stuff kat warwick semuanya melalui internet. u'll know nothing kalau tak check ur warwick webmail inbox and ur mywarwick.
contoh 2: facebook. yang nie tak payah nak ceritalah.

seriously, i think walaupun internet nie mmg bnyk benefits to mankind, secara tak langsung mempengaruhi evolution of human's behaviour, routines and thoughts. dan..ur brain cells damage every second apabila menghadap laptop/pc. yang nie mmg unavoidable. no wonder org dulu2 boleh fikir benda2 yang amazing although this technology belum exist lagi. their brain cells umur panjang =P.

ah, need to continue with my revision and labs preparation. tengok...lagi satu keburukan internet.
DISTRACTION

=/

there's no sunlight today. ergh, miss malaysia thiiiiissss much. ok, got test and labs tomorrow.

ciao.

Wednesday 14 January 2009

.: Slumdog Millionaire:.


i watched this movie last night and i think the plot is kinda interesting but there's something wrong with it, which involve a muslim's life. public kissing and "God is great" as the last words dying in the bathtub full of money huh? u've gotta be kidding dogg! here's the plot and i reckon u watch it urself.

Jamal Malik (Dev Patel), a former street child from Mumbai (Bombay), is being interrogated by the police. He is a contestant on Kaun Banega Crorepati, the Indian version of Who Wants to Be a Millionaire?, and has made it to the final question, but has been accused of cheating.

The explanation of how he knew the answers leads us through the history of his short, hectic, but full life, including scenes of obtaining the autograph of Bollywood superstar Amitabh Bachchan; the death of his mother during Hindu-Muslim riots in the slums; and how he and his brother Salim (Madhur Mittal) befriended an orphaned girl, Latika (Freida Pinto). Jamal refers to Salim and himself as Athos and Porthos, and Latika as the third Musketeer, whose name they do not know, not having read far enough in the book.

Living on the trash heaps, they are discovered by Maman (Ankur Vikal), a gangster who runs an orphanage and then uses the children to beg and bring in money. Salim is groomed to become a part of Maman’s operation, and is tasked to bring Jamal so he can be blinded to improve his income potential as a blind singer. Salim rebels against Maman to protect his brother, and the three children try to escape, but only Salim and Jamal are successful. Latika is re-captured by Maman's organization and raised as a culturally talented prostitute whose virginity will fetch a high price.

The brothers eke out a living, traveling on top of trains, selling goods, pretending to be tour guides at the Taj Mahal, and pickpocketing. Jamal eventually insists that they return to Mumbai since he wishes to locate Latika. When he finds her working as a dancer in a brothel, the brothers attempt to rescue her, but Maman intrudes, and in the resulting conflict Salim draws a gun and kills Maman. Salim then uses the fact that he killed Maman to obtain a job with Javed (Mahesh Manjrekar), a rival crime lord. Salim claims Latika as his own, and when Jamal protests, Salim threatens to kill him and Latika intervenes, accepting her fate with Salim.

Years later, Jamal has a position as a "chai-wallah," (a boy or young man who serves tea) at a call centre. When he is asked to cover for a co-worker for a couple of minutes, he searches the database for Salim and Latika. He gets in touch with Salim, who has become a high-ranking lieutenant in Javed’s organization. Salim invites Jamal to live with him and, after following Salim to Javed's house, he sees Latika living there. He talks his way in as the new dishwasher and tries to convince Latika to leave. She rebuffs his advances, but he promises to be at the train station every day at 5 p.m. One day Latika attempts to rendezvous with him, but is recaptured by Javed's men and Salim. One slashes her cheek with a knife, scarring her.

Jamal again loses contact with Latika when Javed moves to another home. In another attempt to find Latika, Jamal tries out for the game show because he knows that she will be watching. He makes it to the final question, despite the hostile attitude of the host who feeds Jamal an incorrect answer during a break. At the end of the episode's taping, Jamal has one question left to win 20 million rupees and is taken into police custody, where he is tortured as the police attempt to learn how Jamal, a simple slumdog, could know the answers to so many questions. After Jamal tells his whole story, explaining how his life experiences coincidentally enabled him to know the answer to each question, the police inspector calls his explanation "bizarrely plausible" and allows Jamal to return to the show for the final question. At Javed's safehouse, Latika watches the news coverage of Jamal's miraculous run on the show. Salim gives Latika the keys to his car and his phone and urges her to run away. When Jamal uses his Phone-A-Friend lifeline to call Salim, Latika answers his phone and they reconnect. She does not know the answer to the final question either, but believing that "it is written", Jamal guesses the correct answer (Aramis) to the question of the one Musketeer whose name they never learned, and wins the grand prize. Simultaneously, Salim is discovered to have helped Latika escape and allows himself to be killed in a bathtub full of money after shooting and killing Javed. Salim's last words are the words "God is great", which is a muslim prayer.

Later that night, Jamal and Latika meet at the train station, and finally share a kiss. The closing credits then play with a Bollywood-style musical number.

one thing. i think the writter is very creative. good job Simon Beaufoy!

Tuesday 13 January 2009

hurm...

need sumone to talk to. hey, im talking to my own mug, believe me.

-najib ziegler-

Sunday 11 January 2009

.: Free Gaza Now :.

itulah antara salah satu laungan yang aku dengar untuk satu hari ini dari Hyde Park hinggalah ke Israel embassy. bukan terhad kepada rakyat negara-negara arab sahaja (dan juga Malaysia), bahkan yang bukan islam pun turut sama. kenapa? atas dasar kemanusiaan. itu nombor satu faktor demonstrasi ini diadakan. tak kira islam atau bukan islam, tua atau muda, lelaki atau perempuan; semua berdiri atas prinsip yang sama, hak kemanusiaan yang dicabuli. juga atas dasar agama, kerana saudara-saudara seislamku yang tidak pernah ada menyentuh atau menjentik tentera-tentera israel tak pasal-pasal mati katak akibat bedilan bom dan roket yang tak kenal mangsa. paling menyentuh hati kanak-kanak yang baru belajar nak mengenal dunia dan kaum wanita yang tak bersalah mati tertimbun di bawah sisa-sisa batu. Al-Quds dan Al-Aqsa memanggil, bebaskanlah aku dari cengkaman Thaghut zionis dan yahudi, tapi apa jawapan kita? Al-Aqsa milik kita sebagai muslim, harus kita pertahankan.

google sahaja perkataan gaza atau palestin, yang pastinya imej-imej derita ini pasti takkan terlepas dari pandangan. untuk mengulas lanjut tentang perkara ini bukanlah kepakaranku; baik berhati-hati, mengkaji dengan mendalam, lebihkan membaca, luaskan ilmu dan teguhkan keimanan dan pemikiran agar tidak mudah terpengaruh dengan satu rencana yang tak tahu serba serbi tentang penulisnya, sahih mana penulisannya, dan kebenaran sumber rujukannya.

jangan tanya "kenapa kau tak turun demonstrasi tadi?" kepada orang lain. fikir akan kelapangan sendiri dan juga kesibukan orang lain. dah banyak kali soalan ini ditujukan kepadaku padahal bertempat di suatu tempat yang jauhnya berbatu-batu. tapi sedapkan hati bahawa si penanya sangat bersemangat dan tak lupa akan rakan-rakan untuk berada di landasan kemanusiaan.

jangan kata "nak ikutlah demonstrasi esok" tapi cakap kosong. bukan niat untuk menyinggung, tapi dalam situasi sekarang, risiko untuk bercakap sesuatu yang berkaitan dengan isu paling vogue tahun baru ini sangatlah tinggi dan perasaan yang terguris itu dijamin bertambah. setkan niat di hati, kaji kelapangan masa sendiri baru buat keputusan, kemudian baru berbicara. kalau itu kehendak Allah, pasti sampai.


jadi peringatan kepada DIRI SENDIRI dan juga yang membaca, dalam keadaan sekarang, kaji dan fikir sedalam-dalamnya sebelum bercakap dan memberi pendapat. dengar pendapat orang lain juga. jangan atas kerana tahu nama-nama penting, tarikh-tarikh penting, orang lain mendongak ternganga mendengar ulasan kita yang mantap "ittew" (pinjam jap perkataan nie), terus membuat kesimpulan, "aku betul". tiap pemikiran itu berbeza, jangan diharap dapat sokongan 100%. aku sendiri berfikir dua tiga kali sebelum menulis pos ini, namun seperti biasa, untuk aku sendiri ingat dan juga dirasakan penting untuk dikongsi bersama, akhirnya, dipostkan juga.

dan juga, bagi yang tidak ambil kisah di luar sana, jangan difikir ini tidak ada kaitan dengan diri anda. hidup sebagai kanak-kanak di Malaysia jauh sekali bezanya dengan kanak-kanak di Palestin. bayangkan anda berada di tempat mereka sekarang, apakah perasaan anda? menunggu ayah tak pulang-pulang, ibu menangis setiap pagi mengenangkan keselamatan anak-anak dan keluarga. pemuda-pemuda keluar pagi dan balik petang sebagai syahid. fikirkan sejenak. boikotlah barangan buatan yahudi laknatullah. jadi, ringan-ringankan lah jari-jari anda untuk membuat analisa dan bacaan tentang isu besar ini.


London Demonstration, 10/01/2009

penat semalam disebabkan sesi makmal yang lama tak hilang lagi, tapi perkhabaran demonstrasi terbesar di U.K akan diadakan, aku terus jadi suka dan teruja. harapan? agar kali ini suara-suara yang melaung "Free, free Palestine" bukan sekadar angin lalu sahaja. Alhamdulillah, diberi peluang untuk ikut serta walaupun mendaftar saat-saat akhir. bangun lewat sedikit dan tak sempat untuk memasak sarapan untuk tetamu yang datang, Azam, tapi sempat naik bas ke london, bertolak dalam jam 9.00 pagi. tidur dalam bas sehingga berhenti rehat di suatu tempat yang aku tak pasti di mana, tapi mungkin di Oxford. terkejut kerana betapa banyaknya bas yang menuju ke London untuk berdemonstrasi dari serata U.K. walaupun suhu yang sangat rendah, mungkin mencapai tahap -5 darjah Celcius. ini tak menghalang orang ramai untuk turun padang. sampai di london dalam jam 1.00 petang. sangat sesak dan sejuk. kiri kanan penuh dengan manusia. salji turun rintik-rintik (kecik-kecik) dan terus menuju ke tempat ucapan dibuat. ramai yang memberi ucapan. dikhabarkan lebih dari 100 ribu orang yang turut serta dan bilangan semakin bertambah setiap jam. yang paling menyentuh hati apabila kanak-kanak yang naik ke pentas menyebut nama seorang demi seorang kanak-kanak Palestin yang terkorban. tak dapat tahan perasaan, akhirnya mengalirkan air mata di depan orang ramai(malu bangat sih!)

kemudian berarak menuju ke pejabat Israel embassy, singgah di MSD untuk solat zohor dan asar. kemudian ikut serta semula. bilangan orang ramai semakin bertambah. laungan "Allahu Akbar; 1 2 3 4, occupation no more, 5 6 7 8, Israel is a terrorist state; Free Gaza Now; from the river to the sea, Palestine will be free and etc."berulang kali dilaungkan dengan penuh semangat dan hiba dalam perjalanan. ada di antara mat saleh yang mengucap dua kalimah syahadah tanpa tahu apa maksud perkataan yang dilaungkannya apabila turut serta mengiringi bendera Palestin yang dipegang oleh majoriti kaum Arab. Kanak-kanak yang turut serta juga bersemangat melaungkan rasa sedih mereka terhadap nasib yang menimpa rakan sebaya di Palestin. yang tua juga tidak dilupakan, walaupun terketar-ketar memegang bendera Palestin dalam sejuk, masih larat melaungkan ayat pembebasan Palestin. aku kagum. jam 8.30 mlm selamat sampai di Coventry, hampir-hampir tertinggal bas. pengalaman baru yang aku dapat, antara yang terbaik setakat ini. lailahaillallah muhammad rasullullah.




















Thursday 8 January 2009

.: Study ke clubbing? :.

semalam aku went through some random profiles kat internet and tengok lagu2 yang best. download la bnyk2, termasuk la lagu love stoned remix by justin timberlake. syok ar ble tengah tension2 baca prosedur lab, dengar lagu yang rancak skit. aku nie mmg pencinta musik sejati, bila ada lagu layan, mmg gerak abis lah, haha. lepas makan kat surau, tumpang panaskan nasi briyani kat dapur surau, aku pg la study kat university house learning grid. bla dah layan lagu kat telinga, anggota badan lain pun gerak sama menari ar, lagi2 la bila dengar lagu "jatuh cinta lagi" by Matta. mmg angguk2 kepala la jadinya. punya la layan, x perasan orang sekeliling aku tengok. dah la aku pasang volume max, earphone apple pun bley jadi power cam headphone. kedengaran la musik2 rancak tu. tgh syok2 angguk kepala sambil baca prosedur lab, melayang dalam dunia sendiri, mat saleh 2 org ddk sebelah aku menghanjeng ikut sama angguk2 kepala dan badan ikut rentak musik tu. aku baru perasan yang org lain tengok msa aku pusing badan jap nak hilangkan lenguh. mat saleh dua orang tu senyum cam siut je. rse nak lempang ade gak. malu nyer~tapi whateverlah, clubbing cara halal to help others hilangkan tension. haha. kan seronok dah orang ddk ngn aku kt university house nie, lol xp meh study ngn aku, confirm layan~haha. ok, sambung study.

reminder to myself: minimize kan gerakan badan bila layan musik. haha


meh dengar apa yang aku dengar masa berjaya tukarkan learning grid to clubbing centre =P


Tiesto Remix Lovestoned -