Reincarnation

Dear life,

Have i grown stronger? Or am i getting weaker? Recently a few events pushed my serenity to the limit and my anger and disappointment which i lock deep inside for years almost burst or maybe it already did. Where is the patience? I feel sorry for myself when im in that condition, and the best way to solve the problem is to go away for awhile, not to run away from the problem, but to think carefully. Regain the strength to put the anger and disappointment where they should be, far away from the heart. If i lost other organs, i dont want to lose my heart and sanity. My aim is to be a strong-willed person, even if i feel like living alone in this world, when i feel helpless, and in grief. Humans tend to get annoyed when you nag to them, when you ask for help and when you show the your weak points, but He will always be with you when you nag to Him anytime, anywhere. I wonder if i can survive the challenges, but i believe if i keep giving the happiness to others but i dont get them back, there will always be next time. To ask for help is a nature for human-being, so dont feel sorry when you asked for one. But dont be too dependent of others as you will end up hurting yourself, physically and mentally when you did not get one. Is there any decent person for me in this lifetime? Im sure there is as i know you are fair, life deary.