The reasons

Of many things, it took me many years to finally accept that every single thing in this world exists because there are reasons behind it, and to finally achieve this sense is absolute happiness to me :) I do believe that how cruel people can be, there must be reasons. How kind people can be there must be reasons. How hot and cold a person is, i tell myself, yeah, the reasons are always slipped in. I constantly ask myself why someone's personality can change very rapidly, parallel with different environments and persons he or she encounters everyday. Thats what we called "adjustment". I'll say adjustments and being a hypocrite are 2 different things, but connected. Adjustments among human beings happenned because they hope for proper relationship with others, while hypocrisy is the practice of professing beliefs, feelings, or virtues that one does not hold or possess, or in other words, not being oneself. In most cases, people are not being themselves because they want to fit into the society and being different sometimes can cause a little too much...awkwardness, shall i say? But i do find it is such an offense to call someone a "weirdo", such a harsh word (maybe). From years to years, personality can change. So who can tell you're not being yourself? Unless they are with you side by side from the day you were born until present time.

Adjustments can only happen slowly, with efforts. You may already came across this one a few times, "One's present can be changed but not the pass". What i am trying to say is, the history which happenned in the past cannot be changed. We grow with environments and to change our nature a.s.a.p is almost impossible, unless brain washing events occur continuously in rare cases. For example, i grew up being a moderate muslim, as in average exposure to Islamic teachings, but still got basic understanding at least. My parents and teachers did not cane me if i forgot (or on purpose) to perform my prayer, to go to mosque for jamaah or to read Al-Quran. No, i dont blame them for any of that but i feel thankful for that. Learning in slow steps, with average exposure to these kind of teachings give me the chance to measure how close i am to the Creator and how far i will be from the Creator without Islam, or in simplified term, to know the limits. I enjoy being a normal teenager; when im having too much fun, i know it is time to slow down, of course with effort and guidance, taking into account the whisperings of Satan and Devils; when being with scholars, those who already know more about Islam than myself, i am attracted to learn some more. Shut up if i know nothing about it and ask. Being a "Mr. Knowing-All" kinda annoying a little bit and i dont want to be like one.

So, stop carrying around "The end is near" sign and do something about it for yourself and others. "Be happy and average, live like you gonna die tomorrow, learn like you gonna live forever".