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Sunday 29 November 2009

Weird people

Case 1: I didnt know her and first time met, and she shouted at my face in front of everybody. i just remained calm.

Case 2: I refused one simple request because other's joke, and he@the f.a.g blamed it on me for nothing. i just remained calm.

Case 3: I've done nothing, and he made me from being best friend to total stranger. I asked how's he doing and stuff, and got no reply. i just remained calm.

Till when? I just remain calm and one day, i'll burst. To these people, go and eat your own sh*t. I dont care of your existence! Not even worth mentioning!

Thursday 26 November 2009

Week 8

1. Absolute stressed and depressed.

2. Too much work.

3. Too many events.

4. Too wet and cold.

5. Injured because lack of exercise.

6. Want to be alone but feel too lonely. Want to socialise but feel too tired of it. Oh my.. need to balance it more.

Owh it's that time of year again... where personal conflicts and all problems come together, bashing me up till the bottomless ocean of life, haih~

Sunday 22 November 2009

:(

i miss my family, friends, home and Kuching so much... its cold and im sad :( wish i have my own private jet!

till then xx

Saturday 21 November 2009

Old!

I am growing old much faster. Less social life and more problem thinking session.

Old is boring but planning for "future" family is fun. Cant wait to have my own money, get married and have loads of babies! **ignore the last part.

Orphans will always have place somewhere in my heart. Unfortunately, no orphanage in the U.K i can visit :( and recently, 2 orphans girl became killers because of a boy. May God help guiding your souls.

--->bored of reading, writing report. holidays, cepat mali!!! pfft..

Wednesday 11 November 2009

One after another

Yes, i am finished with my labs today. No need to spend time everyday with little tiny bacteria for the time being.

Instead of physicals, now it is time to use my brain more. It's Lab report period :/

It's Wednesday and i haven't found anywhere cheap to go this weekend. Maybe i'll end up in my room again. If that's the case, hopefully i can do something productive.

I am starting to miss people in Malaysia; family and friends. Wish i can go to the hot beach with bright sun again during weekend rather than sitting in this cold room :( There you go. Soft side of me lol.

Better start working then. Hasta la vista.

Thursday 5 November 2009

My life as a foreign biologist

Not until my second year in the U.K i realised the chance im having now. Being in the foreign country. To be here as a Malaysian despite of cheap flights by AirAsia is still a rare event. It is 13-hour flight journey and the weather is completely different from what we have in Malaysia, warm and wet. The first language is English and the cultures are absolutely alien to us. I never bother about those facts not until this afternoon when 3 of us; me, Diana and Karina; all from different countries were trying to communicate in the laboratory. Diana, my lab partner from Bulgaria and Karina from Russia. We were talking in our own English-slang to discuss about our dilution of bacteria culture and we kept repeating, trying to make each other to get the idea we were trying to deliver. It was a serious discussion ended up with smiles when each of us understood each other.

Diana is my lab partner cum tutorialmate since last year and we hardly understand each others' slang last year. It is much better this year and yet there are some points where i need to ask my same-root friends; hypo, milo, naz and helwa what we are doing during the labs. The report will be much more complicated since most of the marks are from discussions and planning of experiments. Hope i'll do fine insyaAllah. There is another deadline approaching which i haven't started researching yet. The piles of works are killing me but i promised myself to do better this year and to be more organised. The first deadline, our hypothesis-presenting tutorial was awesome. I am calmer compared to last year when communicating with my tutorial group especially the part when i have to make my tutor, an ecologist to understand the non-ecology stuff we discuss. And yeah, one of my tutorialmate, Sean, is an actor of Britain's movies, who is so down to earth and another one, Zoey is a professional dancer. Awesome innit?

I have many things in my mind that i wish i can do before graduating in 2011 insyaAllah and yet workloads are demanding for most of my hours and lacking of ATP energy producing which result in early bedtime are the factors to postpone all the thinking. If i am more organised, do you think i can fulfill my wants e.g travel outside the U.K during weekends? :P No need to answer that, thats so obvious. Until then, see you :)